Cha.

Good, Bad, Ugly

It has been a super long time since I’ve posted anything (life-based anyway).

Lately I’ve been going through so much stuff. Seems like my problems keep piling up, bu I can still make it.

The Good:
I’m so much closer to my friends and family now. My family supports me by checking up on me everyday and going to my doctor appointments with me. I’m so blessed to have family that shows their concerns and worries even though I seldom speak to them. My freidns have been great in getting my mind off of a lot of things. Which is good for my mental health but not so much for my Wallet haha. Aerhelle has been right by my side (90% of the time when he doesnt have work :p). It really shows he does care.

Also, I finally have a job I can do my schoolwork in. Boring most of the time, but its what I need to get my schoolwork done. If I’m not procrastinating on internet sites. It puts a little money in my pocket to pay my bills and tuition for school :)

The Bad.
Medically; I’m not sure if I’m okay. Most people know that I’ve been having heart-issues. I had to have catheters inserted in me for 4 hours and the doctors probe inside my body to find why my heart has be causing me pain. On a second note, I’m going through a ‘breast cancer’ scare. My doctor found an unknown mass and I was taken to get a mammgram and an ultrasound, and a byopsy. I wont know the results for a while, but they definetly found something. I’m current on Antibiotics that smell like S**t. So thats all been causing me to be distant from people. But this is my way of actually opening up and saying, I’m okay. Or I will be okay.

Sadly;My medical conditions pushes me farther from my church duties. I miss singing in the choir, and sitting through the long Friday night practices (sorta ;) ) But i am definietly opening up myself to God and taking a Leap of Faith into whatever he holds for me.

Ugly:
Paying for school tuition is really killing me, I’m still out of state so I pay twice everyone elses’ tutition, almost 800 PER credit. Almost 15k-21k per semester acccording to my course load. On top of that, my medical bills are hard to keep up with. So I need another job and less of a social life. The price I pay to get it all done. /sigh

mChaa.